Trying to learn to forgive…
but how do you forgive someone who wanted you to feel insignificant or unimportant in comparison to other girls,
or someone who betrayed your trust in a crucial, sensitive moment after he promised that he would never want to hurt you in that way again,
or someone who was supposed to be one of your closest friends but couldn’t remain loyal to you and has seemingly been constantly putting you down…and refuses to apologize for everything in a meaningful way when you finally confront her about it,
or someone who never took responsibility for her actions, stating that she was just joking when she told your boyfriend that she would sleep with him among other things…and claiming that you wouldn’t have cared if she were a gay guy instead of a straight female, implying that you were unreasonable for being as mad as you were.
UGH. What is wrong with people…it’s so infuriating that these people’s insecurities get taken out on me in one way or another, and now I have to pick up the broken pieces by myself for my own sanity.
And FYI girl, yes I would still care if you were a gay guy, but it wouldn’t have been as harmful to my relationship with my boyfriend since he’s not gay or bisexual, so it wouldn’t have affected me as much and thusly I’d have less to be angry about. I think that’s fair. If he were bisexual instead of straight, then I would be just as pissed. DUH. You were infringing on what was supposed to be a monogamous relationship—none of this has anything to do with my feelings about myself, other females, or YOU. Who the hell do you think you are? If you had done it as a straight female, gay guy, bisexual transexual, or purple moon monster with five heads and tentacle penises, or what-the-fuck-ever, and my boyfriend and you still engaged in THAT kind of flirting for as long as you guys did—guess what? I would STILL be pissed.
And for someone who’s supposed to be so liberally minded, accepting of all types of people, and nonjudgmental, you sure as hell like to point out supposed differences between groups of people like straight and gay, and male and female; and IMO you seem pretty fucking ignorant when it comes to the complexities of sexuality as well.
